I’ve Been Away

16 Mar

I remember the way
Driving home late
Speeding all the way
Alone in the rain
I was rehearsing a part
From down at the bar
My mouth smelled like a drink
We were laughing, I think
I’ve been away

Well world, it’s been too long. Ten months or more. Jeez… why do I have this space if I never use it? Why do I complain to myself that my brain is becoming less and less creative if I’m not even making an effort? I should really change that. I’m not making any promises- even to myself this time, because summer is just around the corner, and I know that in my line of work that means my spare time is about to decrease!

What is going on these days? Lots of things but none of them are too different! I’ve settled into my home, my job and my life pretty well, although there are always times I feel like I need a little something. I love my job and the people, music and good times it opens my life up too, but there is that tiny voice in my head that sometimes wakes me up at night wondering if this is enough for me. I do sometimes feel I would like a position in life that affords me a little bit more responsibility. I try and take on extra things to make myself feel more fulfilled- and I have a few avenues to do that. I take care of the website and social media for the two restaurants and one Bed and Breakfast now. Actually- there you go, that’s probably exactly why I’m not here so much, once you update three other sites it’s less and less exciting to work on your own! When I calm that little voice down I remind myself that I’m really lucky and I am dependable and depended on, so that makes things better.

This winter was the first time I felt homesick and really gave in to missing everyone back home. I have done a good job not going there because I truly do believe I’ve found where I am supposed to be right now. If only we could teleport I’d be perfectly happy and able to see all the people I love back home! I’m getting less emotional as spring approaches though- so thankfully I’m not wallowing in missing everyone because I want to be positive as much as I can. And really- how can you be down when your life is full of music, food, friends, dogs and fooseball?

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┬áLife in our little home, with our little dog and our own little space has made being married feel much more real and solid. This year we set goals and made some life plans. It’s wild thinking that five years ago I was in a completely different space ( going in the opposite direction absolutely downhill with no end in sight) and had a little breakdown that led to stupid things and those stupid things led to my future husband and this life we’ve created. It is incredible how this world works. It’s hard to be sad and down when you realize just how blessed you actually are.

Do you pick up your phone
Do you check your mail
Do you answer your door even if it’s late?
I don’t know who to call
I don’t know who to write
And I think I forgot
What your face looks like
I’ve been away

Music wise, the song I chose for this update is pretty significant to me. I got to perform this cover one time and one time only, but it was to a sold out Opera House crowd the first year it opened and I’m so glad I got to experience that. I haven’t been feeling as musically open and creative lately, which is something that I know is all on me, because I have the urge to learn to play and instrument and work on using my voice more, but for some reason I just don’t go there. I’m not sure what’s holding me back, but there is something! I should just jump in with both feet and do it! Considering how every one of my favorite memories in the last five years is pretty closely associated with music I should just go ahead and embrace that part of me that I sometimes pretend isn’t there.

So there you go, I’ve rambled on enough for one update. I hope I keep this up a little bit more. I have lots of things I’d love to write about, I’ve been reading some great books, eating some AMAZING food and listening to the best of the best in Canadian music so I should really share that with you all!

Do you think that I’ve changed
I swear I never tried
Memory is a terrible thing
When you use it right
I was rehearsing a part
From down at the bar
My mouth smelled like a drink
We were laughing, I think
I’ve been away

Day 7 of 31 Days of Blogging- 10 Favorite Foods

29 May

Ahh boy, here we go, now we’re talking. Food! What could be better to think about, talk about, dream about, drool about!? Not so much.

Let us count it down!

  • Number Ten- something you all need to try because you will adore them! Chorizo Sausage Corn Dogs. Head on down to The Opera House to try one, believe me they are AMAZING! I honestly craved them all winter season!
  • Number Nine- Pork Dumplings, preferably from Green Bamboo Peeking House in Pincher Creek.
  • Which brings me to my Number Eight- Ginger Beef from Green Bamboo Peeking House. It is incredible. Should I just combine these two and call it awesome Chinese food? Let’s see how many foods I can fit on this list and go from there.
  • Number Seven- Sour Cream and Onion Pringles. There is absolutely nothing so delicious as pringles, but sour cream and onion ones are incredible. Eat them. All the time.
  • Number Six- Any chocolate bars with almonds. Just any.
  • Number Five- Nachos. Full out awesome ones with all the fixin’s or plain old corn chips dipped in salsa, I don’t even care, just nachos.
  • Number Four- Perogies! My hubby and I have been making perogies every few months since we got together, and they just keep getting better and better. I make my own dough (It’s waaay too good!) and we made amazing potato curry stuffing. They were the best!
  • Number Three- Fettuccine Alfredo with Pesto. So delicious. Such a bad idea considering the lactose intolerance.
  • Number Two- Macaroni and Cheese. I make a really good one with jalapenos, and spicy havarti cheese topped with panko crumbs. It’s so good. I don’t even know how to describe how good it is.
  • Number One- Club Sandwiches. There is nothing more delicious than a club sandwich with a ceasar salad!

Day 6, 31 Days Challenge – Three Personality Traits I Am Proud Of

28 May

Ahh, three personality traits I am fond of. These types of questions are never easy. I’m not sure I spend a whole lot of my spare type analyzing my own personality- but I have been known to enjoy analyzing others.

I have a whole lot of perseverance. No matter what has come my way I think I always try and find the positive. I always keep going. It’s sometimes the last thing I want to do, but I never give up. I’m always looking for some way to make things work out, some way to fix whatever is going on. I don’t give up. Sometimes that’s a bit of an issue, and I should walk away from things long before I do, but most of the time it’s a positive.

I like to think I’m a genuine person. What you see is what you get, and I don’t change myself or my personality to suit the situation or the people I’m with. Sometimes it’s a downfall, I don’t fit into every mix of people quickly, but the good thing is that when I do fit in, it’s because the people I’m with like and know the real me. I’m not a kiss ass or a schmoozer, say what I mean and always mean what I say. It’s just the only way to live.

I’m going to go with intuitive for my last personality trait. I always trust my gut, and my first feeling about a person or place is often on the money. It’s kept me from getting into some sticky situations and it’s helped me to navigate life. Being able to read a person can really come in handy with my job, with any job really. It’s helped me to be a better friend, it’s made me more understanding of everyone.

So thee we go, Day 6! Thanks for reading everyone!

31 Days of Blogging Challenge Day 5- My Guilty Pleasure

27 May

Oh boy, guilty pleasures. I have way more of these than I would like to admit. Junk food, Mcdonalds Cheeseburgers, Taquitos from 711. I think I will write about my absolute addiction to The Real Housewives though. I am sadly way too up to date on almost all of these housewives. Although I don’t watch Atlanta- those ladies are too crazy even for my tastes! Atlanta feels like I’m watching a car wreck and it’s REALLY bad but I can’t look away. So I just don’t look at all.

I don’t know what it is, just that their lives are the complete opposite of mine but they find so much more to complain about perhaps. These are the richest of the rich, the luckiest of the lucky women, and they complain, bitch and moan, have stupid arguments over absolutely nothing, and full on wars about things like snubs in cookbooks. It’s fascinating.

I think my favorite is Beverly Hills. These women have actual things going on in their lives. There’s lime disease, alcoholism, cheating husbands. There was the domestic abuse that ended in suicide. Actually, I really didn’t think the suicide case of someone should have played out on tv, and completely disagreed with that woman being a part of the show considering the circumstances. Didn’t stop me from watching though. I’ve even read the books these women wrote. It’s a problem! I have a problem!

Close second comes Real Housewives of New York, especially since this show has become more and more cheesy- especially that into about Aviva and her prostetic leg- something about people not having a leg to stand on. Who thought that was okay? So bad!

The last one I watch is Orange County, and honestly it’s not even that entertaining any more but I’ve been watching since the very beginning and it’s hard to stop. I have an issue where I need to finish things, even if I’m not that into them. This falls into that category.

So there you go, I have a reality show addiction and I love it! I think it’s all the cattiness- if these rich, perfect, beautiful women can make such asses of themselves on the daily, well then I can go to work and ask if you want more salsa and sour cream. At least I didn’t have a fight about blow drys today. Money can’t make you happy, and it can’t make you look any less stupid then you really are!

31 Days of Blogging Challenge Day 4- Earliest Childhood Memory

26 May

I have been thinking about this a whole lot lately, not just for this blog! I’m not sure if this is actually my first childhood memory or if it’s just the most vivid memory I have from my childhood. I know they say you remember from the time you’re about 3-4, but I feel like I don’t remember a whole lot going on before I was 4-5 years old.

It was so hot. Sticky hot. We were wearing matching outfits. Our mom had a habit of buying us the same things in our respective sizes and having us be matchy- matchy. At the time, I really didn’t mind.

We were sitting on our concrete front steps. I think it was after supper. The sun was still so hot, and the steps were full of heat from a day of sun beaming down on them. We were sitting together eating ice cream from cones and I remember the feeling of sticky wet melty ice cream dripping down my wrist to my elbow so vividly I’m almost tempted to scratch my arm just thinking about the itch.

We were following all the tiny little ants and red bugs that lived in the concrete steps, trying to squish as many red bugs as we could, and just eating that ice cream.

That’s my first vivid memory!

31 Days of Blog Posts Day 3- Meaning Of My Business Name

25 May

Well, I discovered the first hitch in this list. I don’t have a business name. So instead of explaining something I don’t have, I’m going to give some background on my blog title! It’s probably fairly obvious but hey- if the blog challenge gives you lemons- stuff your bra with them!

So my blog is titled From Islands to Mountains. Again, it is fairly literal, but really it’s got a bit more going on if we want to look outside the box and add some more background.

The literal meaning is straight forward. My fella and I moved from an Island on the east coast of Canada to the Southern Alberta Mountains. It’s a pretty vast difference and there are not a whole lot of similarities when it comes to landscapes and views. It’s an adventure that I wanted my family to be able to keep up with and read about so I started this blog.

If we dig a little deeper I think I can say that it also symbolizes a really big life change for me. Islands are very isolating, difficult places to live. They make you feel out of touch with the world, separate from everything. I often felt this way in life, like I was floating in the great wild ocean and there was no giant fishing net cast to slow me down as I drifted.

Mountains on the other hand, are all encompassing. They surround you and take you in. They are huge, powerful beings ( I know, I know, maybe that’s a silly thing to say- but the mountains around me are alive and I can feel it) and they kind of feel like a giant wall between you and all the crap that exists out there. My move to the mountains was the beginning of a stage in my life where I found a community, I created a life for myself and became a part of something bigger than myself.

So there you go, that’s me over analyzing my blog title because man oh man, I just don’t have a business name to explain to you!

See you tomorrow!

31 Days Of Blogging Challenge

24 May

Well. We can all see it’s been WAY too long since I’ve written anything. I must admit, I’ve been feeling less than creative, and really like I don’t have all that much to say! Being a server in a small town hub has created a bit of a drain on my brain! I talk to people all day, and I don’t know if I ever say anything important. So this is important to me, and I’m going to try and use it as a way to kick start myself back into the creative process!

I was on facebook and saw the challenge below, so I thought I would take it as a sign I should be writing more! (And more, and more and more!) So here goes nothing!

So I will use this as my first post. My introduction to why this is happening, and what it is! Check back over the next month for 31 more posts! I’m looking forward to it!

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